all aboard! head cold city!!

Last night I thought my nose sounded like a train whistle, I was trying to go to sleep and it made the train noise twice when I breathed out. I was totally shocked and amazed and tried to make the noise more. Then I heard the actual train and realized I was dillusional from being up too late.

you inspire me.

Sometimes you meet someone, and somehow they manage to change your whole perception of what you want to be doing and who you want to be. Its really scary at first, but also you feel good all over like you've been submerged underwater for a long time and can finally breathe. Its like that first breath of life that's making you appreciate what you are and what you have all over again. The pressure is off and you can just be you.

I feel so lucky to be feeling this, along with the encouragement you give me to persue things I'm not really confident about. When you tell me I can its like I just jump in, which I don't think I ever could have done without that push. I know you don't realize you make me feel this way, but you do, and I want to say thank you. I'm so lucky to have you in my life.

p.s.

I just get really nervous. I'm trying not to mess things up.

mostly angry, negative post.

My nose won't stop running, I want to rip it off of my face. At least I didn't have to go to gilman last night cause the bunny canceled. I had a weird night and said some dumb stuff but I think its okay now. Every time I'm really happy I freak out and say dumb shit and mess everything up! I really wish I could just shut up sometimes. I'm sorry. Other than that I stayed up too late watching fosters home for imaginary friends and trying to be a good host. Oh and trevor caught a huge spider. I love my roommates for being rad and friendly even when they hate my houseguests. I feel extra complainy today so I'm just going to stop there, on a positive note.

As promised, here are some flyers I made. I get really excited and sometimes go a little overboard with the colors, (as you can tell in the 2nd flyer) but why the hell does photoshop give me so many if they don't want me using them!!?? Haha yeah also my brain doesn't work so good for this art stuff at 3am. I really like the last flyer cause its very simple, and I think I want to make more like that.

Tonight I have to go to gilman to supervise (I'm important) a video shoot for NO BUNNY. Apparently this guy dresses up like a bunny and shoves the microphone down the front of his underwear, basically I'm really interested to see what is going to happen. Unfortunately I'm also really tired and kind of sick and would rather not drive an hour or deal with any of this crap. I also have a friend driving through town tonight thats staying at my place. He talks about himself a lot and is kind of creepy so I don't want to deal with that either. I want to curl up in a ball and sleep!!! I will feel better in the morning... when he leaves.

I feel like i've been a cranky pants lately, and not so much a good friend. I'm always too busy for anyone and anything and it sucks. When I do have downtime I spend it doing laundry or cleaning my house or watching DVD's by myself. I am so exciting. I really can't wait to go on vacation, it won't solve anything but I know I will come back a lot less cranky and stressed out. 26 days... oh god!

rain. work. vacation. art. lunch.

It rained last night. The first time in a while, I always forget how much I like fall. I had a great show last night with Paul Baribeau, Goodluck, Fischer and Sourpatch. It was my biggest show to date and lots of kids came out. It was one of those crowds where everyone there was in really good spirits and having a good time, no one was an asshole. It ruled. I got to sing a song with sourpatch which was totally fun. I couldn't hear myself at all but I got lots of compliments after so I guess I did okay. I hope someone took pictures.

I am stuck at work today and I'm starting to feel sick. I woke up with a sore throat, probably from too much singing yesterday. (band practice, and then the show) I really just want to go home and rest, oh well I can't complain too much. I need the money!

At the end of the month I am going to Florida for the fest. I am super duper anxious to get the hell out of here and go have some fun. There are hundreds of bands and people I am excited to see, and one person in particular I am REALLY excited to see! (If florida doesnt kill you first) I'm going to run around all weekend and go crazy and try to stop occasionally to breathe/sleep/eat! I can't wait!

I feel like i've been having a bit of writers block lately. I think i'm just too happy? I've been in super good spirits lately and its affecting my ability to create effectively. I have been doing a lot more arty stuff like flyers and I'm working on making a large stencily thing to make a tee shirt but so far I am totally failing at that. Also a few nights ago I was up till 3am making a flyer that looked like I was under the influence of psychedellic drugs. I like colors. LOTS of colors. SOOORRYY!! My roommate said if he saw that somewhere he wouldn't even try to read it. So basically I toned it down. I will try to post them soon.

I think its time for lunch.

Sourpatch, Goodluck & Paul Baribeau in Santa Cruz

On tuesday I went to see some of my friends play in Santa Cruz! It was way fun! So the show was supposed to start at 7, right after I got off work in Santa Cruz. I went to the show at 6:50 and proceeded to wait 40 minutes for the first band to set up. They seriously took forever and I don't understand what took them so long, but they were okay. The guitarist was really weird looking but very talented, and the majority of the band was short guys, he towered over them. Also they had an accordian player who I stared at for the majority of the set convinced that if I watched his hands I could somehow teach myself to play the accordian. The singer sounded like he was really trying to be Tom Grabel from against me. He didn't play anything he just sort of wiggled around. It was okay. The bass player's clothes were really small and he was a small guy too so it was very off putting. I made the mistake of standing in the front for the beginning of the set which made me unable to leave the front without feeling like an asshole. Shit I'm way too nice. After them my friend Mombo played acoustic and sang. He is good at the guitar but his voice is strange and I'm not sure how I feel about it. Its like he's going for a HWM type of sound but like he wouldn't naturally sing that way.

Next was sourpatch! pictured below!! They ruled, and I only have gooey amazing nice stuff to say about them so I will spare you.








Next was goodluck! I was blown away, they were totally amazing. Everyone went apeshit.




Next was paul baribeau, He only played 4 songs because the first band took so long to actually set up and play. I totally and completely blame them. Also it was a house show and no one mentioned it had to be over by 1030 until 9:30 when goodluck were setting up. He was amazing, despite the time limit and he told me after he was really pissed but didn't show it, he's a good sport.




After the show a bunch of us went to Saturn cafe (one of my very favorite vegetarian restaurants) to drink milkshakes and eat food. It was really fun. A bunch of people stiffed us on the check cause we had a group of 15 so that sucked. I didn't know some of the weirdos at the other side of the table. they looked dirty and poor. Rich likes r. kelly.

Me and Jennifer

Mandie through my blue water glass.

Nicole through same blue water glass, she is touching her elbow. I think she was dancing.

Something really funny happened.


The following day rich came with me to Berkeley to flyer the show, we didn't get a lot of flyering done but we did eat at herbivore, which was delicious. I got the soy chicken shwarma ( I spelled that right first try!) and a vegan chocolate shake. It was super chocolately and I really liked it.
Rich ordered the same thing with no pickles or avocado, but our server GASTON messed up and gave us the wrong one so he ate the one with the pickles and avocado and I was bummed for missing out on all that glorious avacado. Pickles are just meh.

GASTON!!!